Headfirst Slide

It's October and I love wearing sweaters and jackets and boots.  I love being in school and I love that our house is nearly done.

What I don't love?  Today is a gray, misty day and I feel like the world is tipping sideways a little.  I'm gasping for breath and trying to hold on.  After emerging from a major depression, each bad day fills me with panic.  What if I'm going back downhill again?

A boy we used to know from church died last night.  He was seventeen, or maybe eighteen.  My dark day does not compare.